有時

有些人看起來離開了
只是你不會因為特定的節日 才記起
有時會突然想起 心裡揪了一下
就沒事了
觸景傷情
是因為你真的在乎

逝去的 只是形式上的
不能和你逛逛街 溜溜冰 聽你說的大道理
沒怎樣 我仍然記得你的聲音 你的動作
你確實存在過 于我生命里
你確實 是我要好而從不讓我擔心的朋友
確實讓我很心痛

每每想起你 勾起回憶 揪了心房一會兒
然後再想盡辦法讓自己開心 安慰起來
沒怎樣 人生不過如此...

你都一個人勇敢到處漂泊了
我又怎能脆弱...

朋友 走了十個月喇... 記得報平安
天堂里 要幸福

如夢

遲到了遲到了 穿著校服的我加快腳步. 老是這樣

那是高三開學第一天 背景卻是小六的班 每一個細節都那麼深刻

一進班第一個看見的是物理老師林鳳京 ‘誒 德翎回來了喝~’ 笑著

目視側左 第一個映入眼簾的是羅源漢 他說 ’又是高三理一huh..‘

我走過去想要坐他隔壁 慣性地 他說 不

慣性地 我耍帥地離開 到慧敏那 她坐我前面 美琪在我左手邊 頭髮好短

慣性地 大談起八卦各自英勇事蹟 與早讀課時期 被遺忘的世界之四

你 進來了

你進來了...

我看見你 回來了 穿著中華的全白校服

進了課室 坐在教師的偏左方面對黑板

我激動得 立即跪在你左邊 就像以前想告訴你心事一樣

縮著身子 不願坐在椅子上

像brother一樣的手握方式 握著你的手

激動得哭 源漢也走過來了.

你也在哭...

醒來的時候 忍不住在你的fb留了句: 你好嗎?

你 好嗎?

memorial day

這是最後一次了 我答應媽媽 最後一次了...

因為這件事 無法focus 無法專心工作已經好久

我承認我很固執 我承認我不想接受 我相信你還在

it's not how long u live, but how well u live. bryan did it.

thanks auntie amy for being so strong and tough with us.

從來沒有試過哭可以哭到像下雨醬 淚是一滴一滴地滴在我的胸膛

其實我知道的 我真的知道你要交給我的使命是甚麼 我知道的

謝謝一豪爸爸媽媽auntie uncle們 謝謝你們記得我

下個weekend 答應了陪一豪爸媽談天 看看一豪房間 (;

我可以偷偷進你房間了～

你聽到我講話吧？ 就當你聽到啦(; 晚安

ps: hehehe我今晚跟auntie偷了很多你的照片 >;D

im afraid

再兩天就是了 日子越靠近 越是害怕

你要是知道我有多麼地不想接受你的離開就好了

funeral的背後意義 是叫人面對現實麼？

the old songs, bryan.

thanks xuan, thanks bryan..u did so well, indeed.

有位朋友 email這東西給我 你留下的唯一一首歌

第一次 我一個人在starbucks聽著

這把聲音 收在心中

因為 我知道 你一直都在.

最近常把死亡掛嘴邊

‘如果有一天你走先的話，你相機我跟你媽媽買下 ’ 陳鑽欣講的

so, 我相機是有人booked了的啦 free.

de way u re

the more u believe in science, sometimes the more you feel how the world's been amazingly created
i can stil feel u, around me invincibly, comforting me like the way u used to be.
i just met up with your cousin, for de first time at old town coffee shop.
we talked and laughed, chit-chatting about your very personal thing tat others don't usually know
we shared like we've been knowing each other for so long. no depth.
u r like kind of connecting bridge among us. thanks bro. thanks for always taking gd care of me,
like a brother.

she talked about how much u love new york city:
''there's 1 day when i was chatting with him in de webcam, he didn't really concentrate meanwhile
kept pointing his eyes to another direction, so i asked ''what're you actually looking at huh?''
'' the beautiful scene in new york city...'' u really loved tat place, my dear.

u know, i knew u since i was 3, you're just like an old friend of mine
and this fact will not change until de end of my life.
let's grow old together, in my heart. u this kind little man.

u changed me. and again i promise i will do whatever best to de world and ppl around,
just like you, my dear and beloved friend. thanks for sharing those 17 golden years with me in my life.

a message that touches me in your fb wall:

Bryan dear, yee jeong, me and everyone are pleased to know you look so peaceful...to know that so many people at the plattsburgh U showed their love for you (many even cried their hearts out , many went near your mom telling her what they shared with you when you were around, even a lady cleaner cried and cried over yo...ur death...cos she said you greet her every morning , once gave her cookies etc.) Bryan, as your family members we know you were so kind-hearted and nice...hence, we really believe you were an ANGEL from above, coming to give love and care to your family members and all your friends...just that your time on earth was due....so you have to be back where you came from...Thank you and we are very proud of you...Rest in peace our dear dear Bryan...

message from your parents:
Dear All...

Wednesday, 6 Oct 2010's morning at 7.45 was with a light drizzle as we journeyed our way to the crematorium at Ellenburg, 30 minutes north of Plattsburgh. The drizzle became a bit heavier as Bryan would had it, as we neared the place, a quaint quiet setting dotted by rows and r...ows of trees on the side of the long, slender road. The leaves on the trees have turned to a range of beautiful yellow, orange, reddish hue amidst much green still, being Fall. Bryan had always loved the rain and Fall; we would not had wanted anything different for him. It wasn't exactly chilly; rather, cooling, and we were warmed physically by the radiator in the car.

Lama Tashi Topgyal has very pleasant facial features and we felt instantly at ease with him right over breakfast at the hotel. Lama Tashi (as he would have us called him) lent spiritual support and we felt comforted and assurred with his presence. As he did the chanting, innerly, good thoughts were churned o...ut for Bryan and there was great peace within us. Blessings to all who have, in one way or another, been in connection with his passing-on.Later, Lama Tashi was to tell us that it was Bryan's karma with him that had him chanting for Bryan today.

Prayers having been chanted over approximately 30 minutes, the casket, a wholly wooden cardboard box which rested Bryan, was rolled into the automated steel opening for cremation. We returned our child... who had graced our lives for a good twenty golden years to the Divine Mother, knowing fully well this was a great blessing for us in this lifetime.

It is amazing to hear how he had touched so many people's lives, both young and old, here at the Uni in just 5 weeks since he had been here. May he continue to accomplish what the Divine Mother, Kuan Shih Yin P'usa, has arranged for him to, and, indeed, may he do his bit for America, the land he loved to be in. We are glad he is home.

OM MANI PADME HUM

Mike & Amy Chiel



深蓝色大海是你意愿的归属 那是你妈妈说的 其实我早就知道
你就是这么样的一个人 不带走一片云彩
有一天 我会遇见你 一起融入这潇洒不羁的大海 或空气 或尘埃

表姐

今天的这一篇 要打 是因为我觉得这件事我有必要一辈子记住

我是07年中华毕业生 3年来今天却是第一天回母校

时间 是流逝得那么地快 这里却没有什么在改变的

老师们学弟妹们还是那么天真 变形湖还是变形湖 高二理一还是一样

别说愁云惨雾 尽管多么伤感 大家还是尽量笑着缅怀你

至少过了5天的今天 还是努力试着调适心情

方成校长 答应了你在光前堂的追思会 感谢校长 老师们

谢谢你们给我那样的拥抱 那样地温暖 珍贵

感谢中华 这仍是我最钟爱的母校 这里的人 一切 我们的母校

回程 你表姐打了电话给我 笑谈中提起

说你以前常在你家人面前提起我 她老早就听说过我的名字了

落泪 是因为 原来我在你心中有那么一席之位

谢一豪 我真的很感动 很感谢有你

你的追思会 我会尽力 还有你的家人 i promise.

message

don be afraid don be scare alone out there
everything will be fine n we will all be okay real soon..
don worry about us okay?

your mommy said they have decided to have your cremation in new york,
since that is, after all, your favourite land.

bryan, i do really miss u.
stay happy somewhere in de heaven, you deserved it.
take care, miss you.